So it's been one of those weeks. I was on the phone with Brian this morning and telling him how unmotivated I am to do anything. This is so out of character for me...to a degree anyway. I find my old self slipping away and I desperately want me back! Something about this third baby has really done a number on me. Nothing against Riley of course, but it's just the nature of things that it's harder to be as organized as I once was. My old self is escaping me by the day it seems like. It's like I've stepped out of my skin and I'm waving myself goodbye. Blah, this is so depressing! But, I typically spend a lot of my 'free' time working, as been pointed out to me by observers. Clean after breakfast, give the kids a bath, Riley down for a nap, I shower, make lunch, clean after lunch, clean up all toys, all kids down for a nap, ME down for a nap. But this week, nothing seemed to matter. What's the point in cleaning up after breakfast when we are just gonna mess it up again at lunchtime? What's the point in getting dressed if we are just staying home all day? I spend most of my days in a night gown! What's the point in showering if we are just going to be outside sweating in the heat or swimming in the pool? This new me isn't sounding half bad, less work! Oh, but I hate it when things are a wreck! It makes me feel like I'm surrounded by chaos. Everywhere you look just has a label that says 'Clean Me'. And then I just start to feel claustrophobic in my own house as the piles of laundry and dirty dishes close in on me. Get me outta here!! It's not that hard to pick up after everything, it's neglecting it that becomes the problem. What could have been 10 minutes worth of work becomes 30, then 45 then an hour. Everybody just seems so much happier when things are in order. Ugh, I've gotta bounce back from this!
So just as I updated my 'status' on Facebook (which I rarely do) to say: Someone save me from my rut! Who comes to my rescue?
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